Can someone save me? </3

There isn't a whole lot I want to ask for. Happyness, someone to trust, someone to be in love with and that will love me back. I feel like thats too much to ask for when i get broken hearts, shattered trust, and life with darkness. Yeah most may say there are others with worse lives out there and to appreciate what you have, but there is always those one things that a person needs to be happy. Everyone lives different. Everyday, i can say i think about doing drugs, pills, drinking, and cutting.. Yeah every so often I break. i'm tired of feeling happy, and having one person ruin it all. I want to feel loved for once. all my life, ive always had a person make me believe there isnt real love out there. whether its my family, friends, or someone i want to be with. there is always that one person. I hate seeing couples that are happy. it breaks me. i hate being so numb when it comes to my feelings. i can never gain feelings even for the most amazing people. why? i couldnt tell you. I just ask for someone to save me. please.. someone.. save me.. </3 thats all i want.