Drinking Bothers Me

But I couldn't tell you why.

I don't really care too much when I see like, my family or something drinking. Actually, I find my dad kind of funny when he drinks. What bothers me is my boyfriend, who while he doesn't drink all that much at all, likes going to "those" parties and gets pretty drunk whenever he does. And it really just... upsets me. Every time I think about it, it makes me start tearing up and stuff.

He's at a party right now, and I just started tearing up. I don't know why him drinking really bothers me, but I hate it. And I wish I had the ability to just say "Stop drinking" but I can't ask him to do that - that wouldn't be fair of me to do or say.

But I hate it so much. He always says how much fun he has when he's been drinking and it's not something I can understand. Because I don't need some gin and tonic or a beer or mike's hard or whatever to have fun. I have fun every day without the desire to have some alcohol, yet him and his older sister's boyfriend talk about getting hammered ALL THE TIME. And it just... it's so upsetting and annoying and I honestly have such a difficult time dealing with this. We've been together for nearly 5 months. And I want to just tell him how much I hate how he has this love for drinking. He's 18 for crying out loud! Can't he wait!

I just. I don't know. Maybe I'm being unreasonable.