Freaking out

So, I was reading an update for a story on here, and the chapter was... Disturbing to put it mildly. I read it HOURS ago, and I am still freaking out. I keep having panic attacks, I can barely type right now, I have NOBODY to talk to, and I need someone to listen. To help. To make me feel like someone cares. I don't know what to do... These panic attacks are coming every day now and the tears are falling so thick and fast right now that I can barely see the screen and keyboard...

I don't know what to do anymore.... I just don't know how much more I can handle this. I mean, it's almost 3 am, and I can't sleep because I am so freaked out and with each passing minute it gets even worse. Every little thing is setting me off into a panic attack now... I'm scared...

Edit: I have read some really messed up things in the past, but for some reason, this one is affecting me....