I don't know what I want.

I guess it doesn't even matter what I want, its what makes him happy even if I'm not. He's trying, don't get me wrong, but I'm just not happy. I'm trying to be for him, though. It's just not working. I love how mibba says my blog post has to be at least 100 words long to post. What if I don't wanna! and it still says that it's not enough. Ugh, its saying," Yo, tell them how you really feel."

I want my ex back. I've loved him ever since sixth grade and we broke up because of distance. I'm older now,so I think I can handle it. :( Only one problem. My love for him is making things so complicated with my current ex. :( I broke up with him because I was feeling trapped and whatnot. However, he wants to do this compromise I made. If I still feel trapped with in a month of just talking, then we can make it permant. I thought, well that's easy. Now I'm just so completely confused. I want to be with the second guy, so badly. But I don't want to hurt current guy's feelings. :( Yeah, I could talk to him about it but it would just make things so much worse. What do I even begin to do?

-.- I wish I was a nun.