I hate the way I write.

Its so all over the place. Nothing is in order, nothing makes sense, and I keep writing whatever comes to mind and I have no idea how to blend it and its starting to make me really, really, really angry. I mean, its nice that I'm writing again, and its not just my PTV story, and this is something I could actually get published but I mean, I can't get it published if I can't finish it and write it properly. I want a typewriter. Those things would be so fun. Yeah....
ok, so this is too short I guess. But what else do I have to say? Uh, nothing. Gawd I feel like I'm writing an essay where I don't know what to say and now I'm just sitting here rambling about something totally irrelevant.
Oh! My story! Yeah, its pretty cool. But, I feel like I'm never going to finish it because my characters are going to just leave one day and they won't tell me what to write. That thought makes me sad, because I really like them. They're amazing and the girl is so funny and the boy is awkward and yeah.