nostalgia

today was a very nostalgic day for me
my mom and i were driving along when she asked me if i wanted to go out to desoto with her so we did
we drove back through edgerton and saw an old abandoned house that she had gone in once with a friend
we parked our car, got out and made our way up to the door
it was covered in vines weeds so we couldn't open it but through the widows old furniture, knicknacs, and a washer and dryer could be seen
it looked as if people had lived there for a long time and one day just got up and left
on our way home after that we passed by a cemetery where a friend of hers was buried
we wandered around amongst the names that were familiar to my mother but not me when i came upon a gravestone from 1883
it told of a family that lost their four year old and two year old on the same day
i tried to imagine how this tragedy could have occured but could only come up with guesses
finally as we were leaving the cemetery we crossed an intersection going past an old farm
it took me a moment to notice but the farm was my great grandmother's
i asked my mom to turn around so we did
looking at the old house, barn, shed, creek, and pond brought back so many memories that i didn't even know i had
i remembered how big that farm had been in my little eight or nine year old eyes
it didn't look as big anymore
it still held the memories though
it brought mournful tears to my eyes

i got home and i looked at my mom
i thanked her for having an adventure with me
today reminded me that my job was to build memories
memories that will be larger than life 10 years from now just like my great grandmother's old farm was