Blog Entry #1

Laughs bc no one is going to care.

I thought a blog on here would be fun, maybe to record ideas, events, etc, or just to stay a bit more connected to my mibba friends.

Either way, hi. I don't know what I'm doing.

I guess this first blog will be about my struggling with my stories lately. I'm beginning to find it excruciatingly hard to sit down and devote time to writing new stories, updating chartered fics, and finishing one-shots. I think it's all the planning I've been putting into My Only One lately. Regardless, though, I'm also a bit down on how I write.

I find it hard, although I have the tools and knowledge to proof-read and correct mechanics on my literature, to put real effort into my writing style and grammar. It's stupid, and easily changeable, but I feel as if I'm losing a spark. My Only One is becoming oh-so effortlessly, well, bad for lack of a better word. It's my favorite story, but my writing itself is becoming so drab.

People have told me to stop being so down in myself and that I'm a good writer, but it's not showing through on my work!

Not only is it the spark I'm losing, which only adds to the fact I'm half-ass doing things because I'm lazy, I also haven't the time anymore. I've just been so busy with family and friend problems, as stupid as it sounds, I feel like I'm juggling something all of the time. It makes me sad, because writing used to help, now it's becoming a chore.

It shouldn't be a chore. I used to enjoy it so much.

I can only hope I get that back, and hopefully, if and when I do, I'll get back my spark that I'm missing.