27 October 2012 11:15 PM

my grand mother Deceane Leona Clark passed away at aprox. 11:07 PM on 27 October 2012. she was 64 years old. She died from lung and stomache cancer. Samhain (Halloween) was her 27 anniversary to my grandpa Walter Lewis Clark age 65. Thanksgiving of 2012 was her 65 birthday. she never made it. we all hoped she would make it at least until halloween, but she had already given up earlier. I regret soo much now that she has passed away. i have yet to grieve her passing and so i am using this blog to do so. I miss my "Meme" so very much and tonight is the four month aniversary of her passing. my grades are failing more than ever my depression has torn me to sheds numbed me from every thing. I have absolutly no motivation any more and i cut more frequently as well. i wish i could be stronger than this but with my grandmother leaving me and taking her last breath ... my hope has died as well. she loved angels and the colour purple. she wanted everyone to get along and love each other. the week before she died she told us all that she has had a special bond with each of us. and our bond was amazing she used to wruite me little notes before school and i absolulty loved them i wish i still had them. she would play yahtzee with my grandpa and call him hot lips she was so amazing she loved willie nelson but still enjoyed a couple Evenesence songs here and there as well. for my 14th birthday she bought me a ring with 3 pink diamonds in it. i try to wear it every day. She is an angel watching over me and i love her very much. I love you and miss you, Meme. ~ krisdolittle