The tittle of this doesn't matter...

I just don't understand who I am. Why am I even here? Honestly, whats my purpose?
No, I've never been 'normal' as you might say... I'm practically insane, crazy...
How can you look me in the face and say everything will be alright, when I know its not.
Its NOT okay and its not going to be okay. Stop lying to my face, I cant take it! I'm
constantly in my own world, not paying attention, not functioning and I hate it!
You don't think I try? You don't think i want to be alright? God, just don't even think about it,
go on with you own life and completely forget about me. Soon it'll all be over, it'll be like I
was never here, ill be gone, ill be out of your life, soon, ill be just another forgotten memorie...