I am actually don't know what I'm feeling right now, but it's anything but happiness. I feel utterly awful in the pits of my stomach, and I've never felt like this before. It's like they've died. The band I've loved for almost 8 years is gone. I'll never get to see them live, and I'll never get to meet them as a band. I'll never buy another of their albums or get any new merch they make. It's just all over.
I also cried a lot, like a baby, because this band has been with my through everything. And now it's all gone. I hate it. And it's ruined my year. This is a pile of shit, I'm really sad.