i`m screwed...

I’m realizing in lieu of falling in love with you, instead of finding someone to get over you with, to fall for someone else, my body simply can`t fathom such a thing. So I’ve fallen in love with the idea of myself. not in a selfish way, in the way that I’ve realized no one will ever be good enough for me because after being treated so terribly, I’ve begun to treat people so well I don`t understand people who can`t do the same. When I think of myself I think of an alternate being. In the process of accepting myself, I’ve accepted someone else entirely different than the way other`s see me. This is the reason why I can`t get over you, this is the reason why no one will ever love me, and this is the reason why I am totally, inevitably damned to spend eternity alone.
April 4th, 2013 at 03:56am