Hope to cope.

So iv'e been reduced to now, i really could care less, i want to die, i want to stop feeling, i wish my heart would just stop, or i could kill my spirit and personality. Nothing is left for me. Momo is the only reason i keep going because i made a promise and i plan on fucking keep that promise, but it literally hurts. Im in pain constantly. Its like torture. I dont know what to do, and i see no end it sight. Im useless and really a waste of time in my opinion. Nobody does can or will care for me. I feel so useless, that i would willingly and knowingly allow myself to be used, JUST so i can feel like SOMEBODY has a use for me. I'm going nowhere fast, and on a seemingly unstable train thats gonna end badly. What do i do.