I do know

I've fallen deep.

I don't like it one bit. The walls are being built higher, the fear is settling in my stomach. I do not want this, I don't want to feel this way. I have to much on my plate and this is just, I don't want to feel anything for him.

He says he wants to see me smile, he says he wants to comfort me, but I don't want it.

I don't like it.

Truth is, I'm not use to it. I'm not use to outsiders caring about me, about how I'm doing.

I guess the only thing left is to push him away, far away so that I know I won't get hurt.
April 10th, 2013 at 08:51am