Pain be gone

It's first an idea. A way to get all the pain out that you can not express. You don't know how else so you just look at it for awhile. Is it a good idea or a bad one, you don't really know. At first you know that it is bad. Again you will get addicted and that is never a good idea, but then you realize that it could also release everything that is inside. So you do it. At first it stings but then the warm redness replaces it with some weird form of accomplishment. Then the worry of infection sets in. At first you think, why should I care, but then you realize you don't want anyone to know your secret. Without hesitation you then place salve and a band aid on it. Nobody asks because nobody ever really notices, so you decide that will work for now and go to bed. Until the next time comes again that you cannot control the pain anymore.