I can feel my mood starting to fall again. I hate it. It's probably one of the worst feelings ever. It's like going up the first hill of a rollercoaster. You are climbing so slowly and the anxiety starts kicking in and then you have to sit at the top just staring down at the drop you are about to face. You regret getting on the ride at all. I hate being bipolar. It's like why should I even bother trying to be happy if it's only going to get torn away from me again? I feel shitty today, and exhausted. I think the combination of new meds I'm taking is making me want to sleep all the time. I got a full nights sleep and I'm still so tired.
I tried writing something but I couldn't make anything go from my brain to my fingers and it made me even more sad. I found something I'd like to think I'm somewhat good at and now I can't even bring myself to do it because of the depression. lesigh. I feel like I'm whining so I'm done. kthxbai.
~SadRae