Venting, ranting, and drama (i'm too old for this!) XD

I really wish people would be straight up with me, if you don't like me, then please tell me, if you're pretending to still be my friend, then stop, the only thing you're doing is hurting me, if ya need something (like a pencil) then tell me, I'll lend it to ya (or give it, if I have it) but to keep stringing me along, to make me believe we're still friends, that's more cruel than not being friends with you, for the sake of our past friendship be honest with me, I might be losing you as a friend, and ya it'll make me sad, but it couldn't possibly hurt as much as being lied to everytime I see you as you "put up with me". And if it makes your life easier or happier then don't "put up with me" tell me, and I'll happily stay away, we won't be friends anymore, but that doesn't mean I'll hate you, it doesn't mean I'll stop smiling from our memories, and that doesn't mean I'll leave you flat when you need me, it just means I'll know what's up,and I know where I stand in our relationship :)