realese II

have you ever felt like a failure for not achieving something? something that might seem stupid for everyone else and maybe even you but you were hoping to impress someone? yeah, thats how i feel. as others laugh at me or make fun of me for crying about it and worrying about it here i am, feeling miserable for something stupid but that its serious for that someone else that i hoped to impress. for the first time in my life i failed at it and even though i told myself it was nothing and that it didnt matter, here i am seating on an empty hallway with my laptop listening to hold on till may by pierce the veil while spitting my guts here. ironic how that’s the name of the song im listening to while I’m going through this, maybe its a sign, who knows? i tried to do everything i could and every time there was a stupid excuse stoping me from just getting there. i hate this feeling so much. i just want things to be different.