Miscellanies (aka to do with my boyfriend)

Hey guys, so this blog post is going to be about my boyfriend. Let me tell you, he is not someone I thought I would end up with. I mean, its not like he is ugly, because to me he is not. I just feel like I would have never have went for him. When I first started to talking to him like as a friend, I was already interested in him. Of course I never told him that because I felt like I never had a chance with him because I'm fourteen and he is seventeen. So naturally I would never think he would like me because I'm 'little'. Oh, and when we first started talking, it was in December, but when we were really really talking it was Christmas break. So we had never talked at school in person. I don't even remember if he asked me if I liked him. I just kept it to myself, because as bad as this is about to sound, I was talking to another guy. I got feelings for my boyfriend, due to a lack of attention from the first guy. I didn't just like my boyfriend(his name is Justin by the way) because he gave me attention, but because he understood me. We always had the silliest conversations and he ALWAYS made time for me. No matter what, he would always find the time for me. We didn't even know we were going to be together. Trust me, our relationship has changed plenty since the beginning. I'm sure it will be different from today later in our relationship, if we last *knocks on wood*. With Justin, I feel like he is going to be my first serious relationship. Like you know, bringing him home to meet my family and hanging out with him all the time. Its only been three months, and I know what you're thinking. This silly girl thinks she's in love when it's been a short period of time. Its not just that though. I know for a FACT he won't hurt me. I know he is real, and respects me. He never pressures me to do anything at all. Sometimes I feel like he is in love with someone else, but I think its just me overthinking things. Like he even says, if I wanted to be with that person, I would have been with them a long time ago. So I do believe him. But I don't want to drive him away from me you know. And I don't want to make him get bored of me either. I can be a little crazy sometimes because I have BAD jealousy issues, but I've never really shown it until Justin came a long. One thing I really hate is that people doubt that we will last, considering I am a freshman and he is headed to college next year. Everyone says he will cheat. I hope he doesn't, but I trust him. I wouldn't be with him right now if I didn't. I get really sad thinking about him going to college next year, and having to face school alone. He's really what gets me through my days because I look forward to seeing him whenever I can. It gets me through the days. I have very little time with him in school because he leaves out of here May 24th. And trust me, time flies being with him. I am constantly checking my messages to see if he responded to me. I sometimes get mad when he takes too long to respond because I get so anxious for his reply. I also get really mad when I'm late to school and can't see him. I don't want you guys to think I'm crazy or obsessed with him either. But he's all I think about. He honestly makes me really happy, and that's all what matters right? He treats me really good. I just have to thank God for bringing someone like him in my life. I pray that he stays in my life as my love for a very looooooooong time. Thanks for reading! :)