HELP?!

I've been looking for this story on here and I haven't been able to find it. I'm not sure what it's called but I do know a few things. I swear I subscribed to it but apparently I didn't. It's an M. Shadows love story. The girl's name I think was Crimson but I also know that wasn't her real name, it's what she preferred to be called. She was a stripper. That's all i can remember. It would be super awesome of you guys to help me. Thank you so much c: It's been bothering me for a week, it's all I've been thinking about...gah!