Razor Blades

When I was younger, I don't want to be left with my dad, especially if he's in a bad mood. My dad scares the pizzas out of me when he's angry. Maybe because he hurts me when I make little mistakes. But I don't hate him, sometimes parents hit their children when they discipline them right? but I don't like it. When he ask me to find something for him, and when I can't find it, he makes me feel like I'm stupid because I can't find it. But when he's in good mood, we're actually pretty close, actually I'm a daddy's girl before I had my brother.

When I was in 6th Grade, (2008) that was the time I started hurting myself. I was an only child for twelve years, my brother was born in 2008. I can't seem to accept that I have rival to my parents attention, that was the time when I started changing. I became more emotional, attention seeker, I'm always mad at my parents, always answering them back and I started cutting. at first I used scissors, barely cutting my skin, then razor blades.

Four years after, my relationship with my parents got worse, my cutting got worse. and I don't know what to do about it.