It's not him, it's me

This is in reference to the blog that I posted yesterday for those who don't know.

So I realized that...well quite frankly I have really severe insecurities because I thought he was breaking up with me when actually he was planning on asking me to go on a trip -_- I know I'm an idiot. I mean I knew I had these insecurities before but I never really saw how much it affected my relationship.

My boyfriend has put up with it for about seven months now and I love him for it but I can't...I can't put him through this anymore. It's time I get over my problems but...I don't know how.

I know my last two blogs have been depressing but I swear when all this blows over I shall make something happy and rainbows and Avenged Sevenfold of awesome. But I only do it on mibba because I feel less comfortable around my friends

After being the way that I am for so long, I don't wanna worry that our relationship will fall apart all the time. Yeah we are going through something that's pretty heavy but he says that he's not going anywhere and so far he has proved that he has so I wanna do whatever is necessary to keep us from having to deal with anymore problems than we have to.

What do I do? Should I give him space while I fix myself? Should I ask him for help? Ugh....I feel like I have that dark cloud over my head like they do in the depression commercials -_-