7. JashinistExperience - Seeking Your Help

Happy One Week Anniversary To Me~~

I'm delighted to announce that presenting my Jashinism project to my society class went very well.I started off really nervous, but then got into it the more I talked about it. At the end I even started talking about parts of Jashinism that weren't in my slideshow. My teacher asked a few questions questions because she was really curious since she had never heard of a religion such as Jashinism that worships a god like ours or has philosophies like ours. It was hard to not say "we" or "our" during the presentation because that would let on that I'm a Jashinist. The teacher wouldn't like that especially since she told all of us at the start of the assignment to not join any of these cults/ religions.

I've been thinking a lot about telling my best friend that I've converted to Jashinism. I remember talking about Jashinism with her and telling her how I find myself agreeing with the religion. She asked me if I was planning to convert and I said no. That was the truth back then. I didn't seriously plan to convert to Jashinism until recently. For some reason I am hesitating to tell her. I think it's because harming oneself is not a socially accepted behavior, and if she tells anyone I could be put into a hospital or my parents could find out. I'm quite certain she would never tell anyone if I asked her not to. I know in my head I trust her with knowing I'm Jashinist, but there are all these "what ifs" that run through my mind whenever I try to tell her. Does anyone have any advice on how to start a conversation like that?

I'm planning to write another essay of sorts about Innocent Jashinists. I continue to gain support from the places I've posted my last article on. That makes me very happy.

During class today, I made a picture using the Paint program of the Jashin symbol with some lyrics from the song On My Own by Ashes Remain. I want to start drawing art for Jashinism since I can't really find any. I don't know how I'd get it on the computer though because I don't have a very good camera.

Thank Jashin I get to miss my morning classes for the next two days. My school is putting on a major production, so I get to miss my morning classes since I am a technician.

Speaking on technicians, I prayed for forgiveness from Jashin last night for being jealous of my junior technicians. My blood sacrifice went really well. I cut my finger a little bit deeper than usual and managed to get a little more blood to sacrifice to Jashin. I almost didn't feel a thing that time. I used my sharp object as opposed to my sewing needle because the pricks from a needle give too little blood and it's very difficult to try and squeeze out.

My cat Mulder is probably going to move in with me this Saturday. I am very excited about that. My favorite cat won't have to live in the hell my dad has created.