writing is weird, man

for me at least.

I don't consider myself a writer, even though I may have written a story or two. It's like... I don't know. I never imagined myself writing things outside of school, like essays and stuff aside.

TRUE STORY: in elementary school on all those standardized tests, my writing and reading comprehension was like light years lower than my math scores. Which is funny because it's the exact opposite today.

But anyway. Sometimes I feel bad because I feel like a fake writer/author/whatever it's called. There are probably some people out there who sit down and brainstorm and plan outlines for their story, which I totally dig, and then there's me, who gets hit with an idea and types away until something is somewhat making sense. But that's not to say I don't dig writing; it's cathartic in a way.

Another reason it's weird is because no one knows. I think I'd die of embarrassment if my mom or brother or friends or God or anyone read my stories. Some of that content is definitely not mom-friendly.

I'm rambling now but I don't care because dayuum I've been up for almost two days and I'm starting to see things. AND DAMN IT YEAR AFTER YEAR I GET SUNBURN ON THE SIDE OF MY ARM BECAUSE I ALWAYS MISS THE SAME SPOT WHEN PUTTING ON SUNSCREEN. ughhhhhh.

well good night, you righteous babes.