I miss her.

We haven't been talking in a while now and I'm hardly accepting this. I miss her, I want to see her, but I feel as if I try to talk to her, she's only going to push me away, like she usually does. Trying to distract myself with music and friends really only helps for a while. Whenever I go to bed, whenever I lay there, whenever I wake up in the middle of the night, whenever I wake up to challenge another day, she is on my mind, she is like poison I can't get out of my body.
I check her tumblr everyday, this is like the only thing I can do to feel close to her again, she never uses facebook, and reading our old messages just hurt too much. She hasn't been on tumblr for weeks, yet I still try to find little hints, things, thoughts, about me, about us, and it keeps me going on. I know that she loves me, but she seems so far away, not only physically, but mentally.
June 8th, 2013 at 03:55am