As a former self harmer, I know how hard things can be. A few months ago, I went through I really tough time. And instead of trying to stay positive, I picked up a razor, which I really regret now. I shouldn't have done it, and neither should any of you. You all are too good for that. I may not know you guys, but I still love you and think you're perfect. Just the way you are. Even if you have scars, like me. I just want to ask you guys to do me a favor. Please, please don't hurt yourselves. If you do, you just let them win. They want to sit you weak and in pain, so you can't let that happen. And if anyone ever needs to talk to me, message me. I will always reply and try to help. Even if you think your problem stupid or you're over reacting, I'm sure you aren't. If you have a problem that makes you upset, then it's big to me. I can relate to bullying, depression, self harm, and skipping meals. Yeah, at one point I was a mess. I still am, in a way. But I stopped listening to people who didn't like me and brought me down. There's no point in letting them get to me. People are going to judge me no matter what, so I decided that I should just be myself. At least I can know that I'm not fake. That really makes me happy.
If you don't feel comfortable messaging me, I understand. Some things are really hard to talk about. But I really want you to!! I still want to help you, though, so here's my advice. Just cut out the bad parts of your life. And if you can't, don't think about them. Just focus on happier thoughts and things that you love. Here's my list of things that keep me going:
People:
. Jeff Hardy. He's my hero and role model. I have so much respect for him and owe him a lot. Without him, I wouldn't be so open about the real me. He taught me everything that I said above, that it's okay to be different, as long as you're being yourself. If you don't know who he is, you should really look him up!!
. My little brother (He's two years old)
. My four close friends
. God (I'm just saying this because it's true. I'm a huge Christian, but I won't try to force you to believe in the same things that I do. You have the right to your own opinion)
. Andy Biersack, the lead singer of Black Veil Brides. He's a role model of mine, too.
Music:
. Black Veil Brides
. Hollywood Undead
. Falling In Reverse
. Sleeping With Sirens
. Green Day
. Linkin Park
. Tokio Hotel
. Paramore
. My Chemical Romance
. Breaking Benjamin
. Fall Out Boy
. Evanescence
. Pierce The Veil
. Bullet For My Valentine
Etc...
These are the reasons that I stay strong. I feel like I can't leave these people. They mean too much to me. I love my friends so much, for supporting me and just being there for me. I love my brother too. He's so cute!! And of course, there's Jeff and Andy. I know that they wouldn't want me to hurt myself, because they both love their fans. They're real celebrities. I have such a connection with music. I could've had the worst day ever, but when I put my headphones in, I don't think about it anymore. All I can feel is hope and happiness. Honestly, it's the best feeling in the world. And the lyrics in the songs by these artists are so true and easy to relate to. If you don't know these bands, you should try to listen to them. I really hope they can help you, too. Bottom line is, I don't want any of you to hurt yourselves, no matter what. Try to stay strong and happy, and message me if you need someone<3
<Hailey>
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