we choose to ignore a lot of things.

Just casually scrolling through Facebook, and suddenly I see a bunch of R.I.P. Johnny statuses. So I keep scrolling and found out they were in reference to this kid named Johnny that I pretty much grew up with, just never really talked to. Even so, it took me by complete surprise because it's like you don't really think much of the people that have affected your life in a small way, you just kind of know they're around and they're living a life of their own. And it's actually really frightening when they just suddenly fucking die because it's a reminder that you don't know what the hell yours or anybody else's future holds and that's a really scary thought. Because what if you die tomorrow? But at the same time, what if you meet the love of your life tomorrow instead?

Each day is kind of like a game of Russian Roulette, and I don't like that, but I guess I just gotta ignore it because there's nothing I can do about it.

Now excuse me while I go take a few breaths because this stuff really makes me upset.