So sad.

only person i thought i could trust tossed me under the bus hard. i dont even fucking know but im so so sad and we're supposed to be hardcore workout buddies (my fucking sister) and i don't want to do anything with her right now. dont want to eat even though im under my calorie consumption for the day, don't want to be awake right now, don't even want to sleep because we sleep in the same fucking bed.

i hate being so down all the time in my blogs, but whenever i have inspiration to write im having some sort of negative emotion. i was gonna update my stories before i leave the country on thursday but i feel too awful to do that, too.

i hate being sad.