Wanna know a secret?

1. I have only 20 followers on twitter. That's sad, yeah?
2. I have 75 friends on facebook. Even worse.
3. I have like 4 friends i can sustain a conversation for longer than an hour with.
4. I spent the last year liking someone who doesnt like me.
5. Im not even sure i like above person or i just like the idea of liking someone
6. I've never gotten a phonecall from a guy.
7. In my 17 years, i got my first hug this year. As a dare.
8. Never had a valentine
9. Im sometimes scared i'll never be married
10. im scared shitless of cats. And dogs. All animals really. Sometimes even humans.
11. I sometimes get through a day by thinking about slitting my throat and watching scarlet pour over me. Id never kill myself, but the thought comforts me
12. I dont really want to be a doctor. I want to teach kids with special needs. But who wants their kids to be a teacher right.
13. I'm secretly married to chris hemsworth
14. I try to make people laugh because i know sometimes a laugh is all someone needs
15. I hate people mindlessly. For no reason.
16. My face is my no go area.
17. Ive got discoloured patches on my boobs
18. I wish i were fatter.
19. I want to go to Cape Town to study next year
20. I want to go into parda (veil) after i get married
21. i hate leaving pieces of my life behind. Kind of why i keep a journal
22. I want to adopt one day
23. I cry really easily

Yeah. There. If you had the patience to read this I salute you.