Sensitivity and Sensibility

Okay, so for the past weeks I have been a bit sensitive towards things, and I began to take things a lot more seriously, like my health and my future.

Sometimes I just want to seriously break down because nothing is what you expect them to be, and nothing is ever how you plan them.

I have zero self control, and I can't resist a lot of things, which is a fucking curse.

I don't even know anymore. One bad day feels like I've lost hope in all things.

I partially don't want to pursue my goals because, even though I look like I don't give a shit, and tell everyone else not to, I actually do give a shit. I am afraid of criticism, I think everyone secretly is.

The most important thing is to not let that affect you.

Here I go again, trying to save nobody. Why do I even try? I can't even save my self.

I'm not sure if these feelings are here because, I ate something bad (or good) or I'm just going fucking insane. I thought I had a plan and everything, but honestly, socializing with my friends just makes me stop, I don't even know why talk to them, sometimes they all irritate me. No exemptions, and the hardest part is when they're all irritating. AT THE SAME TIME. That just makes me want to cry.

I feel so alone most times it's not even funny. I feel like I'm going no where in my life, if dying was an option...

Nah. Not yet haha, I wanna at least try.

Just trying to let all these feelings out, because I don't like burdening other people with my shit, although sometimes I give in, but never like this.

Ugh. Fuck.

LotsaLoveandShitXOXOXO