Love Sucks (Repost)

Weell.
Don't look at me like that. It's true.
Most times.

Love is great, it makes us do things that we never thought we'd do (excuse the overly used phrases, but it's true). One cannot relate to this if you haven't felt it. It brings joy in your heart and adds meaning to your world. Nothing is more satisfactory.

Then why does it suck?

How does it suck?

WHEN YOU FUCKING FALL FOR THE WRONG PERSON.

I don't mean your dad, your mum, your sis or your brother. None of that shit okay (Well it may be applicable, but still, not what I mean)

ANYWAY.

There, when you fall for the wrong fucking person, by wrong person I personally mean friends, but you can derive your own shit from this.

Falling for friends is not a walk in the park, especially when you're really close to that someone.
I HAVE fallen, for one of my bffs. I don't know how it happened, I don't know if he poisoned me or what all I know is that this is making me insane. It happened before. I got over it.

AFTER 3 FUCKING YEARS. Yes that hard.

Then we started hanging out again, at first it wasn't all that weird, it felt more casual than it had every been, I mean I could have grabbed his ass and not have given a shit, but more and more, see we started consistently talking, planning and all that shit, and and it's just coming back.

I wasted 3 fucking years trying to forget about his ass. Here we are again. Oh my glob. Love is just fucked up man.

How do I know it's love? I don't fantasize about him. Ew. Oh. God. No.
Well, not sexually anyway. In other words, my care for him isn't just based on lust.
I truly care about him, more than I fucking should and more than he knows.
Well, he's probably picked up on it by now because he's kinda smart, but idk. Our friendship is perfect! I don't want that going away, it's too good to waste. We have too much in common. If I tell him now, oh my god, that would just ruin shit. Now i don't want that.

I used to deny it, but judging from the sleepless nights i have just thinking about this person, and the dreams i have about him . Just what in the actual fuck. I never usually feel anything towards any body (because I'm dead inside, idek)

Oh god this can't happen. Gonna avoid him for a few days.

Sorry for wasting your time once again C:
LotsaLoveandShitXOXOXO