That 25 deep question thing

Got this from Little Dove. Sounded fun, or at least introspective.

1. What is more difficult for you, looking into someones eyes when you are telling someone how you feel, or looking into someones eyes when they are telling you how they feel?
Probably looking into their eyes while telling them how I feel. I usually only tell people things while drunk, and it's usually not even completely truthful (haha), but I cover my face. When people are talking to me, I am intent on making eye contact because I know I don't do it enough, so, while it is uncomfortable, it is managable.

2. Think of the last time you were REALLY angry. WHY were you angry? Do you still feel the same way?
I really can't remember. I don't get angry very often at all. Only annoyed or frustrated. Like a cat that never hisses, just puts its ears back and jerks its tail.

3. You are on a flight from Honolulu to Chicago non-stop. There is a fire in the back of the plane. You have enough time to make ONE phone call. Who do you call? What do you tell them?

As much as I would love to call my boyfriend, I would have to pick my father. My mom just passed away from cancer a few weeks ago. It would be cruel for me to die so suddenly after, but it would be even crueler to not give him my last words.

4. You are at the doctor’s office and he has just informed you that you have approximately one month to live. Do you tell anyone/everyone you are going to die? What do you do with your remaining days? Would you be afraid?

I figure it's much like having to tell everyone my mother has passed away or when she was passing away; I only told those closest to me. They are the ones who need to know, not the world. I suppose it depends on how sick I am. If you've only got a month, chances are, you won't be well enough to travel or do much of anything, so I probably would spend time with family. Those who say they aren't afraid are liars. Everyone is afraid of the unknown, even if one has convinced him or herself that religious beliefs are enough.

5. You can have one of the following two things. Which do you choose? Why? Love and Trust.

You cannot have love without trust. This is a stupid question.

6. You are walking down the street on your way to work. There is a dog drowning in the canal on the side of the street. Your boss has told you if you are late even once more, you are fired. Do you take the time to save the dogs life? Why or Why not?

Well, if I am walking down the street, surely I would continue to walk to work without being late. Pretty sure I would be able to rescue the dog and still run to work. Also, not a very good question...

7. Would you rather be hurt by the one you trust the most or the one you love the most?

Yet another stupid question... Generally, the people I trust the most are the ones I love the most... I would be hurt by the same person.

8. Your best friend confesses that he/she has feelings for you more than just friendship. He/she is falling in love with you. What do you (or did you) do/say?

Funny... I told a friend that while drunk. I tell lots of friends that while drunk, even if it isn't true. (Not the falling in love with part). My best friends wouldn't reveal this to me because they know I am in a very serious relationship with my boyfriend. It would be in vain.

9. Think of the last person who you know that died. You have the chance to give them 1 hour of life back, but you have to give up one year of yours. Do you do it? Why or Why not?

I told myself even two days ago that I would give up ten years of my life so that my mother could have ten healthy years with us. I know that it was unreasonable because I could not have 10 healthy years myself to give, but the answer to this question is an obvious yes.

10. Are you the kind of friend that you would want to have as a friend?

Right now, I'm a bit clingy and self-conceited. I think it is just because of my mother passing away. It's left me lonely and in need of attention, so I don't stress myself about it too much, but if thing swere like they used to be, yes. I would want to have myself as a friend.

11. Does love = sex?

Do I want to have sex with all of my family members? This question should be more specific. I'll be kind and assume that the maker of this question meant does "true" love equate to sex.

In that case, no. Sex is a part of that relationship, but if it defines it, then the feeling is not love. It is lust. There should always be a balance between spiritual connection, emotional connection, mental connection, and sexual connection for true love to exist.

12.Your boss tells your coworker that they have to let them go because of work shortage, and they are the newest employee. You have been there much longer. Your coworker has a family to support and no other means of income. Do you go to your boss and offer to leave the company? Why or Why not?

Well, it depends on where I am in life. As of right now, I am a college student, so of course I wouldn't be in this kind of situation. And, if I were in a company, pretty sure it would be to support my own new family. I would probably offer out of curtesy, knowing my boss would most likely prefer to keep one of his strongest employees.

13.When was the last time you told someone HONESTLY how you felt regardless of how difficult it was for you to say? Who was it? What did you have to tell the person?

I'm usually pretty honest about how I feel. Unless I'm drunk. I tell people how I really feel all the time. I can name 3 people I have told how I really feel in the past few weeks, but most of them already knew. My mom, as she was passing, my boyfriend, and this guy on a game who was hitting on me, ha.

14. What would be (or what was) harder for you to tell a member of the opposite sex, you love them or that you do not love them back?

I haven't had to tell people that I do not love them back. I don't let it get that far if I feel no love for them.

15. What do you think would be the hardest thing for you to give up? Why would it be hard to lose?

Is this an object-sort of question? As in give up an item, or have to give up something deeper, say... intellect? I could not give up my intellect. I would be nothing without it. As for objects, pretty sure it would be my iPad right now. I've been living off of it lately.

16. Excluding romantic love, when was the last time you told someone you loved them. Who were they to you?

One of my family members. My dad, probably.

17. If there was one moment and one time in the last month what would you change and why?

If there was one moment and one time? There was obviously a moment and a time during the past month... Poorly worded question. Anyway, I don't know. I couldn't change her passing away. I probably wouldn't have gotten drunk and tried to kiss this guy from my class to 'enhance my experience'. I'd only kissed my boyfriend before and just wanted to say I tried 'being' with other people. Just created confusion.

18.Imagine it is a dark night, you are alone, it is raining outside, you hear someone walking around outside your window. WHO do you wish was there with you?

My boyfriend. He went back to his mom's to help her move.

19. Would you give a homeless person CPR if they were dying? Why or Why not?

Probably not. I don't know how to do CPR, and am a germaphobe. Maybe if I had one of those cover face things and were properly trained.

21.You are holding onto your grandmother’s hand and the hand of a newborn that you do not know as they hang over the edge of a cliff. You have to let one go to save the other. Who do you let fall to their death? What was your rationale for making the decision?

My grandmothers are dead... Guess it's the baby.

22. Are you old fashioned?

I don't know. Not a deep question, not a deep answer.

23. When was the last time you were nice to someone and did NOT expect anything in return for it?

We always expect something in return, even if it's as minimal as gratitude.

24.Which would you choose, true love with a guarantee of a broken heart, or never loved at all? Why?

I don't know. It wasn't true love if it didn't work out... So...that one, I guess.

25.If you could do anything or wish anything, what would it be?

I would wish that my mom were back, healthy and well. I'd probably ask for her and my dad to be 10 years younger and live healthily until the moment of death.