She's two days old today! And she's gained four ounces in the past two days. So great seeing she dropped six ounces since she was born.
I'm going to be released from the hospital tomorrow. I'm actually really happy about that. Of course, I'll be here every day to see Olivia in the NICU, but I know my house will feel lonely because my boyfriend will be at work and Ava and Emily won't be over until I'm able to heal up a bit more from the c-section.
While I'm glad that Olivia has gained four ounces in two days, I wish my doctor would leave me alone. I can only pump much each day. My breasts are sore, and according to the pediatrician at the hospital, she should have gained double that. I know she's only telling me what I need to hear, but it makes me feel like a failure that I can't give Olivia what she needs.
I struggle everyday with guilt over my stillbirth daughter Gabriella. Now I have doctors, while they may not be trying to intentionally, make me feel like a failure because I can only pump so much for Olivia.
Can November get here so I can bring my baby home or what?