I Guess I should tell you about me

Hey guys I know this is my first blog and its really hard to write this so I'm going to write it like a story. Okay so there is this girl her name is ummm Dahlia. She was born September 23rd, 1999 she grew up with a happy very annoying and stubborn family. But she had a problem you see she was depressed forever, she pulled off the great acts of being "happy" and all the crap, but now she's starting to tire of it. She self harms, in any way possible, mentally and/or physically . She just wants to die, end her life now and not care what'll happen next, she wants to be like every one else, beautiful, happy, perfect. She looks in the mirror and sees a giant whale the is scarred all over not a lot of people know though, that's what she is great at, hiding her real self . She loves kissing razors, loves the burning blistering skin, loves the pain. She is so used to it she knows it as normal, once finding the slightest of happiness she doesn't feel right she feels uncomfortable. Her family doesn't know she is suicidal, she self harms, she is schizophrenic, she is anorexic, she is bulimic, she is depressed, she has an eating disorder, she has anxiety, she is bisexual. She knows they wouldn't accept her in the family, she knows they will keep her away at all costs, so she doesn't tell. She pretends to be a badass around her family and friends as she breaks down and cowers away inside. So this is a little about uh Dahlia, thanks for listening