Dear Lord, Grant Me the Serenity

Dear Lord, Grant Me The Serenity to change the things I can and accept the things I cannot...

I can't deal with this. I am so fucking manic. I have been wearing her jacket since she gave it to me. I swear, I thought I would be okay. But I'm not. I am the exact opposite. I came into the classroom this morning smiling. Then I looked at her desk and I lost it. I didn't know that it would be this sudden. I went to ask her if I could have a pencil in science.... I swear this isn't normal. It hasn't really hit yet because it's only one day... I don't wanna know what it is going to be like on Monday or even further than that.... I don't know what I'm going to do without her.

Oath by Cher Lloyd is on replay on my computer.

So is Best Friends Forever by KSM

Our songs..... fuck.

Everyone at school is asking how I am and saying how sorry they are. I hate pity. I swear the next person to ask that is getting punched.... I have been doing everything I can to keep my mind off of her. Busy-ness is key.... I get caught up in my work and then it doesn't matter. I just wrote 5 pages and counting on this. I will type it up and post it for you all to read. Other than that,

Don't forget, we live to die! <3