My Future Scares Me

In all honesty, I have no idea what it is I want to do with my life and it scares the shit out of me.

I'm afraid of failing and I'm afraid of not making something out of myself. I am currently in the child studies program at my local college, and I though it would be fun. I wanted to work with little kids in any way or form, but now that I'm almost done my first semester, it is not what I thought it was. It's filled with absolute bullshit where they try to drill one way of thinking into your head and you're forced to think that way or else you will surely fail the course. It just angers me, I wish they focused on the program itself instead of throwing in stupid things that won't ever be useful in life. Like Critical Thinking being one of the courses, I don't think I'm ever going to use deductive and Inductive arguments or graph someones arguments.

Anyways, I can either keep with this program or go into a nursing trade which guarantee's a job once the studying is done... I'm just freaked out because I don't want to mess up.. I don't want to make a choice that will ruin my life in the long run. I'm just stuck.