The other day she wrote me this note letter thing during school and it took me a few periods to bring myself to read it.
The words were terribly sad.
A few of them were smeared from her tears, and I just. I don't know. Inside the the short letter she told me she likes me, among other things, and she asked me if I was angry with her. Which I'm not. I barely acknowledged it afterwards. I don't want to talk about it, I guess, considering that one of the things she wrote about is how she was afraid of my rejection.
I don't want to tell her that I like her.
I'm not even sure if I do, I just know that I like girls and horribly I think I'm just venting that through her bc she likes girl.
Now every time I hug her or lay with her or really much of any contact i feel like i may lead her on and i just hate this i shouldn't even be the one upset she spent many attempts telling me that and stayed up until 2 writing and rewriting those words and just
uhgthwgsaerfd a year and a half left it feels so far i want out and away from everyone