Caraphernelia

Sometimes song lyrics relate a little to closely to my life or how I'm feeling at the moment. For example: Caraphenelia by Pierce the Veil.
"What if I can't forget you? I'll burn your name into my throat I'll be the fire that will catch you. What's so good about picking up the pieces? None of the colors ever light up anymore in this hole."
I'm going through something and I can't wrap my head around it.
"What's so good about picking up the pieces? What if we don't even want to?"
It about sums up how I feel. I'm ready to give up on it. I keep putting myself into positions detrimental to me and I can't do it anymore.