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What?

My title is censored. but who says it's a censored curse word? Maybe I censored a name. Like Jack or Mike. Or maybe even Alex. Because I wanted to be mysterious so you guys will read this.

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I've basically been searching and searching for ways to make some extra cash. It's actually really pathetic how desperate I am. I started recycling cans and when I get enough I'm going to cash them in. I'm going to put my change in a piggy bank. (Not really an extra way of saving since I already keep my change anyway, but I think watching it accumulate will motivate me.) I'm going to apply for a few jobs sometime when I have free time. I'm going to try to sell my shoes from prom since I literally only wore them for 2 hours. I'm going to sell my textbooks as soon as I'm done using them..

Now I just need more ways to make money. Even if it's not much. Like online. Any ideas? Someone suggested prizerebel.com but I didn't really like how you had to sign up for every single thing to complete it. :(

I tried being an agent person who answers questions for KGB or whatever. But they wanted my social security number and they don't have that BBB sticker on their site, so I decided I'm not risking it.

I just really don't know what else to do. I'm working over Christmas break. And. ugh. UNLESS I WIN THE LOTTERY THERE'S JUST NO GETTING OUT OF DEBT.

I hate our system. I really do. We should have free schooling like other countries. And why aren't our health services cheap? I mean, Spain has the seventh best health system in the world and their health services are very cheap and sometimes almost free. Why the fuck are we not doing that.

I'm just so done with how everyone contributes to my life being fucked.

I feel like I'm trying so hard to create a good life for me that I'm actually making myself a useless piece of shit.

(Oh, no, am I going to get banned for bashing myself?)