What is this thing called 'Love' you speak of?

I think one of the things that hurts the most is when one of your best friends turns out to be a two faced backstabber. Having your trust betrayed is the most awful feeling ever.

In the summer I started speaking to this boy called Luke. (Let me translate: "speaking", in Scouse terms, is kind of what happens before you become someone's boyfriend/girlfriend. You basically like someone and they like you back but things aren't official.)

So I was speaking to Luke and everything was sunshine and unicorns and rainbows and it was all awesome and I really, really, really liked him. But one of my best friends started getting a bit too friendly with him and it got really awkward between us all.

I was fuming because I had told my friend to her face that I liked this guy and we were probably going to end up together. It didn't seem to make any difference to her though, because every chance she got she was all over him.

I stopped speaking to him when he started flirting back with her and ignoring me. I cut him out of my life completely which was one of the hardest things I've ever done because I'm pretty convinced I was in love with him.

I found out a few weeks ago that they'd been speaking for about 4 months at the same time I'd been speaking to him.

I've never felt so betrayed in my whole life. One of my best friends and the boy I absolutely adored.

I hate them both now, but not as much as I hate myself. I'm mainly angry at myself for not realising what had been going on for 4 months behind my back. How could I have been so stupid?

I don't know if I can forgive them for doing what they've done and I'm pretty much an emotional mess of bitterness and hurt right now.

Love sucks.
December 10th, 2013 at 08:38pm