Its not easy dating a drug addict and when I say drug addict, I dont mean weed. I mean the hard core drugs, Heroin, Kpins which is also known as Klonopins.
Let me explain the difference between the two.
Heroin- is used as a recreational drug for the transcendent relaxation and intense euphoria it induces. Which can cause overdoses, extreme addiction and ever death in some cases.
Side effects-
Shortness of breath
Dry mouth
Constricted (small) pupils
Sudden changes in behavior or actions
Disorientation
Cycles of hyper alertness followed by suddenly nodding off
Droopy appearance, as if extremities are heavy
Behavioral signs-
Lying or other deceptive behavior
Avoiding eye contact, or distant field of vision
Substantial increases in time spent sleeping
Increase in slurred, garbled or incoherent speech
Sudden worsening of performance in school or work, including expulsion or loss of jobs
Decreasing attention to hygiene and physical appearance
Loss of motivation and apathy toward future goals
Withdrawal from friends and family, instead spending time with new friends with no natural tie
Lack of interest in hobbies and favorite activities
Repeatedly stealing or borrowing money from loved ones, or unexplained absence of valuables
Hostile behaviors toward loved ones, including blaming them for withdrawal or broken commitments
Regular comments indicating a decline in self esteem or worsening body image
Wearing long pants or long sleeves to hide needle marks, even in very warm weather
Klonopins-Klonopin is indicated for the treatment of panic disorder.
Effects of Klonopins AKA Kpins -
Neurologic: Abnormal eye movements, aphonia, choreiform movements, coma, diplopia, dysarthria, dysdiadochokinesis, ''glassy-eyed'' appearance, headache, hemiparesis, hypotonia, nystagmus, respiratory depression, slurred speech, tremor, vertigo.
Psychiatric: Confusion, depression, amnesia, hallucinations, hysteria, increased libido, insomnia, psychosis (the behavior effects are more likely to occur in patients with a history of psychiatric disturbances). The following paradoxical reactions have been observed: excitability, irritability, aggressive behavior, agitation, nervousness, hostility, anxiety, sleep disturbances, nightmares and vivid dreams
Respiratory: Chest congestion, rhinorrhea, shortness of breath, hypersecretion in upper respiratory passages
Cardiovascular: Palpitations
Dermatologic: Hair loss, hirsutism, skin rash, ankle and facial edema
Gastrointestinal: Anorexia, coated tongue, constipation, diarrhea, dry mouth, encopresis, gastritis, increased appetite, nausea, sore gums
Genitourinary: Dysuria, enuresis, nocturia, urinary retention
Musculoskeletal: Muscle weakness, pains
Miscellaneous: Dehydration, general deterioration, fever, lymphadenopathy, weight loss or gain.
I know this is a lot to read, but it is something that you should know about. My boyfriend is currently an addict and yes he will sit there and lie to you about it, he will say that he hasn't used a single thing. But he will tell you that he used the Kpins. Dealing with a person who does drugs is very hard and stressful, because you love them and you don't want to lose them. My mother is an addict as well and that is something that is scary to, I love her and I don't want to lose her either.
I am worried about my boyfriend right now and I am writing this to let you know that if you know someone that you love and deeply care about, dont let them continue this. Because when you mix both of those drugs you get one bad mix, they will be the most honest person with you but its only because they are high as a fucking kite.
Letting someone that you love or know continue to do hard core drugs is you letting them kill themselves, because that's what will happen. They will end up killing themselves and it may not be on purpous but it will be accidental. Just because that addiction got the best of them, thinking about my boyfriend not waking up scares me and brings me to fucking tears.
I have fought long and hard, years and years to be with him. I am not going to let this pull us apart, I am not going to let him destroy himself. I understand what he is going through because of my mother, she has been doing it her whole fucking life and its not a game. Its not, its something you need to stop right when you figure it out. Its something you need to keep an eye on, when you know someone who does it.
At this current moment my boyfriend is high as a kite at his home and I am having his mother bring him here, not so that we can cuddle but so I can keep an eye on him and I can talk to him while he is high. Because maybe just maybe I can talk him into going away to a rehab, I told him that even him doing just a tiny bit scares me because I dont know if that will cause him to stop breathing.
but I will continue this in another blog he will be here in a few minutes.
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