What am I doing? Where am I going?

Maybe some of you have noticed my absence, and maybe some of you have not. Much like how some of you know who I am, and some of you haven't the slightest idea. Either of which, I am still nothing more than a handful of words to you all. However, I have felt as though it was necessary to inform you all of my whereabouts lately and ensure you that I have yet to fall off of the face of this Earth ...

I, my friends, have fallen into a rather dark, corrupted place at this given point of my life. If some of you are unaware, I am currently attending college. And see, after a long first semester, I have met a numerous amount of intriguing characters. My social life - which had never been an important aspect of my living - now consumes me. I can't even begin to describe the type of things I have seen or have done recently. This, right now, is not who I am. I've fallen into a group of people I've tried countless times before to escape, but each time I run, I manage to run right back to them. They have become my second family and they are all I know in a city I know nothing about. And as the days go on, I drift farther and farther from who I once was and fall further into this vicious circle that is both destroying me, while making me stronger.

And I love it.

I have yet to succumb to the amphetamines, but I fear that day is close.

I hope you all understand and forgive me for my absence. I had no intentions whatsoever on abandoning any of you ... Just know that I'm trying to keep myself on track the best I can. To my readers, stay beautiful. And to my lovely subscribers, stay close. I'll be dropping an update in C.O.G shortly ... Love you all and keep doing what you do best.

xoxo