What I feel and want can NEVER be explained in words

I can't, I just can't.
Hi, if you guys don't know me, I'm Avery. I'm a teenager with a bunch of issues. More than I can count. When I feel upset, sad, or even happy....I can never explain it or even express it. The fact is, I'm still confused about my life. I wake up some mornings and I just don't even know who I am. I don't know how to go on living my life, or even how to get out of bed. Compared to that, I wake up and know exactly who I am and what I'm going to do with my life. All I can say is, is when I do feel lost a pit in my stomach begins to rise. I get jumpy, ADD, and usually I throw up. So, this day...I'm lost. I feel sick and my head hearts.
Debate...what should I do with my life?
I'm gunna go watch Shane Dawson and pray his humiliation will make me feel better. Remember guys, you have a purpose and so do I.....tho I haven't found it yet ^.^" bye bye