Starting to feel rather useless.

Everyday is getting to be the same thing; wake up with my boyfriend, sleep for a couple more hours, get up, tend to the fire, watch something, draw/paint, read, job search, try and avoid leaving the room and having to deal with his mom, waiting and counting down the hours until he comes home. It’s just the same thing over and over again.

Occasionally also having to deal with the bf’s annoying as fuck friend, which wouldn’t be so bad if he came over just once in a while, but it’s almost every day. I already know he’s already asked to come over tonight, and he’ll probably stay until 1 in the morning.

I would leave, just take off and do something. But I have nowhere to really go. And my car only works when it wants to these days.

I’d like to clean the house, because I know no one else is –even though someone else is here all day as well- but I feel if I do that will just make things awkward and tense… more so then it already is.

I’m just feeling like I’ll never get out of here. Like this is all my life is going to be. I’m just trapped here and drowning.