(Apology blog entry) + small ramble about Sherlock + 10 significant things that are wrong with me

{Before anything, I just wanted to say a big sorry to anyone waiting on my story Whore, I stopped writing it due to many personal things happening. Also I neglected my mibba big time which I am also sorry for. I may however continue writing it now as I need to distract myself from IRL stuff fas much as possible. Gonna combat the dramatic lifestyle by writing writing writing. Also my new story Fixated has been super fun to write, I had the idea for it while I've been on holiday visiting some family in Spain. (I'm going back tomorrow though. boooo) So it would mean loads to me if you checked that out and gave me a bit of critique/ your opinions! Especially if you're a Sherlock fan}

Next, I wanted to just say I died a small death at Sherlock season 3. I'd prepared by watching the last two seasons beforehand. THE FEELS. THE FUCKING FEELS. I then watched up to the end of season 2 as I made the fantastic decision to introduce Sherlock to my mum. I felt it was absolutely necessary to commentate the whole way through it, frequently squealing from feels and pointing out how cute John and Sherlock are (even though I don't really ship them). I literally spouted so much trivia and irrelevant facts about the actors and the making of it that my mum looked as if she wanted to strangle me. I just want to point out that I am a huge Cumberbitch as well (you can tell through my latest story) but I detest that phrase. HOW CAN I BE A CUMBERBITCH WITHOUT USING THAT HIDEOUS PHRASE?! #importantlifequestions anyway, yeah this has been such an irrelevant ramble I apologise. #bencumberbatchscheekbones #thankyougod #havemercy

AND lastly, the 10 things significantly wrong with me.
1. I have a hideous eating disorder which has essentially ruined my life.
2. I grew up way too fast. I am 19 going on 30.
3. I have borderline personality disorder; my brain is a little skew whiff. It really effects my life choices and the way I think/ have relationships.
4. I have a habit of shoplifting which I am working on since I nearly got arrested last time I was caught..
5. I find it extremely hard to care about people. I can name the people I genuinely care about on 1 hand.
6. I do have a drug problem that changes itself a lot. It's anything from popping pharmaceutical pills to spending days on end on a class-A binge.
7. I used to work as an escort/call girl. I now work as a webcam girl. I was judged a lot for it.
8. I HAVE NO IDEA WHAT THE FUCK I'M DOING WITH MY LIFE
9. My life is always dramatic and always changes drastically. Every week something else happens (hence my absense on here)
10. I spend too long on the internet. (I blame tumblr)