weight issues

I have been SO sparradic this last week or two... I'm "trying" to work on not throwing up as a solution to eating too much and a way to loose weight... this weekend I just kept skipping meals (which made me feel good about myself, but it also made me dizzy), which I understand is bad, but it still felt good. And today... today I did alright, until that bowl of ice cream I just had. I mean, I shouldn't have had that snack before dinner, but it wasn't too much, but now I really want to go purge. But I really CAN'T. Because we only have one bathroom, it's attached to my parents' bedroom, and everyone's home. Today my mom was congratulating me on the weight I've lost this summer. I know I look better than I did, it's just a fact. And I plan on continuing to loose weight. Hopefully another 25-30 pounds. That doesn't mean I'm proud of it. I smiled and nodded, knowing how disappointed and hurt she'd be if she knew how I did it.