This morning I woke up freaking out about not having a job still after trying all month really hard so I decided to go into Starbucks and talk to the manager to see if she was still looking at applications.
You should know this is really hard for me I almost chickened out a few times but I finally did it and I didn't actually get to speak with her but I left my name and email. Anyway, it went a lot better than I expected.
Being an adult is so weird. I just want to tell my mom to do it all for me. I've been trying and applying like crazy to places close to my school so I can have an easy accessible part-time job and actually pay for my own things.
I really need a job. I don't have a cell phone because my mom can no longer afford to pay my bill and I haven't brought any new clothes since last fall. I have ONE pair of jeans that I wear at least twice a week (I don't even care honestly) but it would just be really nice if I could get myself some nice things to make my life easier. I'm catching the city bus to school and if I had a job I would be able to start saving up for a car or even just a nice bike . And omg I really need a cell phone. It's so awkward telling people that I don't have one and they look at me like I'm crazy. Like excuse me for being POOR!!
Also I have to make myself doctors appointments and stuff along those lines. Ugh it's the worst. I hate calling people and talking to strangers. I'm surprised I haven't had a complete social anxiety melt down yet and locked myself up in my room. Trust me I've been thinking about it but I've done a pretty good job of staying calm in social situations (even if I do have to pinch myself every time I walk into a room filled with people)
People with anxiety don't get congratulated enough for doing things that seem really simple but honestly took a lot of effort so I'm going to congratulate myself right now. GO ME! For actually going to into Starbucks this morning and speaking to that nice lady. Also go me for making a new friend at college.
Yep you heard right I made a friends at college today. We played ping pong and chess (I lost at everything) but yeah. He's moving to Atlanta in two days though :( But whatever I'm proud of myself for initiating conversation with another human being.
All around today was a pretty good day. I made a 90 on my first English paper, An nice old lady told me I looked cute and another nice lady gave a a pocket sized bible on the bus :)
Also my mom made meatballs!
How was your Monday?
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