Reality

the truth of it all is simple. Im trying to force myself to do things that i think will end up being easier than they reallky are. I started this stupid shit now i have to clean up the mess. The question is when will i try? When will i attempt to stop what im doing. Yea i lie, i steal, i cheat, and at the end of the day i dont give a damn about any of it. i just do what i do as long as it pleases myself. Of course this does not apply to my close friends. (brooklyn, rayna, storm , jazzmean, jewel, nick, ect.)
But i dont know hoe to stop anymore its become a part of me , a part of my everyday life. Really im at the point where i donmt know what do to besides to contine doing what ive been doing so i guess where just gonna see where this all goes because i have too muuch to think about and its driving me to the breaking point . So basically ...reality sucks ass!