Praying hard

I am 23, I work hard.
I work three jobs. Three part times that equal to about a full time and a part time. I work 52 to 60 hours a week. My body feels it too. I am in pain constantly, but it doesn't help that I am overweight and on my feet all day for one of my jobs.
I work as a night time gas station attendant, and a night time front desk clerk at a hotel. I also work in the afternoons at the hotel as a food and beer passer outter, haha.
I love and hate my jobs. I love my regulars (that actually talk to me), but I don't feel accomplished.

I have always said if all I do in life is worship God, and make one single person smile because of anything I am just as accomplished as people in the likes of Austin Carlile, Danny Worsnop, Eminem, Andrea Gibson, hell anyone I look up to that has done a lot with their lives.

I believe that accomplishments are not measured in what you do, but what you do for others.

I just hate that I have no direction though. I want to do something with my life, something big, and educated. I have no idea though. I was certified as a phlebotomist, and could not use my certification because I have such a bad anxiety any time I got near a person with a needle my hands would shake something awful, and medications did not help me. So my dreams of being a nurse...crushed.
Then I thought about teaching, but I am scared that if I go to college and spend all this money I will waste it because I am not sure if I can 'handle' that job.

Words are my only connection I have to this world. They are they only thing next to God that has saved my life. I want to do something with words, but I am not a great writer, yes I have a story, but no real talent.

I guess I am finished ranting, but I have a favor from people.

If you pray please pray for me, for direction, because I am so lost in this world, and I am not hearing what God is trying to tell me. If you don't pray to God, just wish me well, or send me good vibes.

Thanks. Love 'ya all!
Nighty night.