Is it bad to be addicted?

I have a 'strange' addiction.
I am addicted to the blade but. How do I stop?

So much stress is being put upon me at every given moment and I am overwhelmed. I've tried to overdose so many times, with 30 pills or more each time. It never worked. I guess im loosing more and more friends but I don't understand why .. Ivree rarely talks tome anymore .. its depressing. Im just a girl. Addicted. To. The blood pouring from her body. I am just the girl who lost everyone and is turning to the internet. Im just the girl who is self-conscious. Im just.. Me?