This discontentment is something I can't shake.

First of all, I'd like to start off saying that I haven't been on Mibba in awhile. You could say we have an on-again, off-again relationship.

Anyways, forgive me for being randomly involved but sometimes I just need community! You get me? Somewhere where I can feel like I belong. Oh, and I am completely clueless on backgrounds and whatnot.

Well, I have a problem. And honestly this is the only place I feel like I can come and get my problem out.

I live with my boyfriend in Michigan (away from my family) because his family lives here and my best friend lives in Montana (which is where I'm from), and I never talk to my mom or my best friend (or anyone for that matter!) about my problems. Even when I lived in Montana I didn't talk about it. It just feels like I understand my problems, so why would I need to talk to anyone else about it? I understand the problem, I know there's a fix for the problem, so there's no reason to get advice from anyone else about it because then they would know how flawed I am! Plus, I am a perfectionist so it seems like to get the right outcome, I must do it myself.

So: I have this feeling of utter discontentment, for lack of a better word. I am not satisfied. I am lonely. I am sad. I am demotivated.
From all this ^ stems a bad relationship with my boyfriend. Which I'm not even gonna go into.

My question is: Am I alone in this feeling?!?! I moved to a different state, and I know no one except for my coworkers and boyfriend's family, and I am just sad! I feel like I am completely alone, I feel like there's nothing to do here, and it's just a shitty place all around.

Does anyone else just have this feeling of being completely lost in life? Where all there is to do is sit around and read and watch tv?